Esther-Elain's profile~~Esther's Weekly Blog~~PhotosBlogListsMore

Music list


身处梦境的早晨 by Emi Fuijita

The Water is Wide by Emi Fuijita

Blog

June 19

Recap and Reshare: Revelations learnt during Batam Trip

I changed my profile picture to the one on my left on facebook.

Seize the day !!!!!

Friends I have spent so much time on facebook that I forgot to share my revelations.....anyway the blog is quite christiain-contented....if you know what I meant.........it actually sometimes act as a platform for me to tell God how I feel, for myself , for God and for those who love and know God and want to know more about him.....

HARRIS BATAM!!! its a great place to go for for BATAM TRIP!! IT's super worth it!!!!

went there with a godly sister for prayer and quiet time with God , to nuah as well.

It was a wonderful time of rest and relax. and we prayed, at least twice a day. It was a delightful time to be drawn close to HIM again. I get to know HIM at a deeper level and I admit that after the batam i do receive a lot more revelational knowledge and slowly, progressively I learnt to hear more clearly from him.

the commandments to follow: quite true right?

god looks at the heart....

to dwell in the house of the lord forever....

Revelations mostly from Book of Daniel and Samuel

God remembered prayers --he answered Hannah's prayers --she gave birth to Samuel the great prophet of the time. He answered Daniel's prayer as well and delivered him and his wise men....
He is righteous ---he honours those who honours hi, ( 1 Sam 2: 30) ---he raised Samuel because the Elli's sons are not righteous and did not honour God. (Era of the judges)
God loves Children of Israel so much that even if it aches his heart to give them a King (a man as lord as ultimate leader) which means God will be replaced in their hearts in time to come, he still permitted them to have a king....Saul was annointed as the first king drawing a close to times of the judges.
God is a god who can humble all and exalt all. He raised Saul a man from the smallest tribe of Israel benjamites to be the first king of Israel. Yet he was disobedient and hence god withdrew his power from him later. God made Nebuchenezzar insane and ate grass (book of daniel chap 4) because he was too proud. God eliiminated generations after his when the nobles and king belshazzar used golden goblets form the temple of God to toast and praise idols. Indeed God is a great god.

One particular revelation comes from Sister Joy about meditating on the eight gates of prayer in philippians 4. it talks about the 8 positive things we should meditate on as we pray.

With interest, I took a deeper look into philippians book and realize the entire book is full of wisdom on ways of life as a christian, prayer and faith driven verses....indeed we should all study this short book in detail!

May god bless those who read my blog!!!

12:13 AM | Add a comment | Permalink | Blog it

June 17

Thank God who created all things --- Beautiful!!!

THANK GOD for creating all things beautiful!!!

(My hair is messy but that's besides the point)

In GENESIS, the first book of the bible in the old Testament section, God created the earth, light, humans and rested on the seventh day. With the luxury of time now to rest and relax, I have the opportunity to appreciate the beautiful things in life. and I am absolutely thankful to our heavenly father up there, watching over us in all things.

I went to Jurong West Service with Jeanne for Celebrity Weekend, the service was awesome.

看见明星们一个接一个地出现在台上,我的心感到无比地感动.

本来闪耀光芒的人物,在神的宫殿里显得自在, 每个行为都很"自己",毫无掩饰的样子. 他们每一个人都很"raw"，很坦然。当vaness吴健豪说自己sin过的情景，并且带领敬拜神，这是个多么美丽的情景啊!

FIR

Jacelyn Tay interview on how she transformed from a staunch buddhist to a devoted Christian. It's amazing.....I really admire this woman!!!

Vaness Wu- he is cool, humble so humble when he shared how he had sinned in the past. That is a very beautfiul part of him as a star**.

Just a side note: I used to hate this church before as well. that was before I was saved. I really thank God for sending a fatherly figure to head and create this church. THis one person has changed the lives of many. Despite his accomplishments, he still remained humble as a bondservant of God. (he is a very wise man). Praise the Lord for such an inspiring pastor and his wife and God bless him and his beloved ones always!!!! P.S. the best part of the church is the caring system: I thoroughly enjoyed the our famous and traditionally favoured birthday songs...," God is blessing you now....God is blessing you now ...." Happy Birthday Song....it was done and we prayed for Jacelyn Tay as a congregation ( and thank god brave as each of us are , we are definitely not shy about praying in public for those we cared for in front of nonchristian friends whom we invited to church))**

倘若你也像我一样是一个不折不扣的有闲空时间就八卦的女人，你就不难发觉，我会注意一些明星的新闻。做艺人不简单。多数韩国明星自杀，多少美国明星吸毒（韩国明星也有啦），还有更荒唐的傻事都做得出来。这是可悲的。明星施入此闪耀光辉，他们是年轻一代憧憬，向往的人生目标，是以身作则的榜样。只要是帅哥美女，老少也疯狂，包德士和飞机追明星已经是见怪不怪的事情了。

这么美丽的星星，却因为心灵空虚，无时无刻被压迫，甚至无法面对自己，而坠入谷底。这是多难过的事情啊！大家都晓得，万物要的到平静才能获得喜悦，品尝人生的愉悦。简单的快乐，说容易不容易，说难不能难。容易在于为一的一扇墙是自己，而跨越他却需要勇气与神的力量。

当一个人已经累到不行时，他是最脆弱的。而脆弱的心志（志=mind, 心=conscience, 毅力，heart) 容易受诱惑。撒旦魔鬼是诱惑和罪恶之首，会诱惑我们犯下错误。明星犯下让自己前途毁尽的频率会比正常人高，因为大家对他们的要求很高。往往他们都带着面具上争，而长时期deny否决真正的自己对心灵的创伤是很深的（破坏率很大）。

因此，当我见证这些明星真实的一面，理解他们，我的心很感动。他们的内心是多么的美丽，那颗星星闪得更耀眼。倘若所有的明星都能引导世界的青年正面面对人生，有建设性地追求梦想，世界会更美好。

我们今天面临的社会，双亲职的家庭结构，是导致社会退化的元首。被遗弃的小孩，没有父母稳固、扎实地扶持着成长，长大会很混乱，不知所措。小孩的思想是一张白纸，或是一块海绵，若没有明确的价值观来分辨对错，很容易就会误入歧途。

我希望cultural mandate会进一步在我们的梦想天空中发光发热。有意义的事情，神啊，庇护它吧！这些明星可以一直成为少年和社会各阶级人物的好榜样和模范对象。“偶像”本来就是让很多人因为很爱某个人物，而更想变成像那个人的，不是吗？

I pray that for the years to come, more stars would receive Christ and there will be an overflowing abundance of good-willed Christian stars who dare and fight to win souls over to Christ, for God has done a great work in each of them. No one will ever complain about an abundance of good role models who are able to more effectively persuade the youth of today to move in the right path as they seek for their purpose in life.

By personal experience, knowing God is the best thing that happened in my life. Though I lost some, I gained much more. I learnt to accept who I am and acknowledge who I am in God and be stronger in faith in doing the things I think which are right. Though complying God's laws and teachings and submitting fully to him is what is required of a Christian and that requires adjustment and changes, but God willed for all things to happen for the good of those who love him. Man will always reject changes, especially those that requires them to move out of their comfort zone (though those changes are required to make you a better person). One think for sure, once a Christian, the fear and love of God will rule you and they come hand in hand. you will be thankful to God who delivered you out of your troubles, who answered your prayers and you will develop love for him and the fear of lord will direct your paths so that you will stop being rebellious and make the necessary changes.

You will see yourself becoming gradually more humble than you think you can be , with your own ability. I am still learning and growing in the lord and joy filled my heart more days than grieve and sorrow. Once you managed to transform yourself to become a better person, a breakthough occurs and the joy of being a better person, surpasses all suffering/longsuffering that you endure during a period of change. you will be grateful as God opened your eyes to see and connect your own personal experiences with others who are going into a similar situation, and that's when you serve God as a samaritarian and your friend to lend your helping hand so that he/she was not abandoned in the worst situations. I would say that it was indeed God in you who is moving coz God will move you to help a person when God starts to reside in your heart, for according to the Word, our body is the holy temple of God where his spirits resides.

Enough of my own preaching and rattering....just a piece of reflection or thought-sharing after Celebrity Weekend.

May God bless all who read my blog!!! Hallelujah!

11:53 AM | Add a comment | Permalink | Blog it

June 05

A great word to share,...

A great Word from Pastor Kong today....

The Greatest Is Love

5 Jun 2009

There are three things that remain—faith, hope, and love—and the greatest of these is love. 1 Corinthians 13:13 (TLB)

Love is the first commandment of Jesus Christ. He says, “You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind. This is the first and great commandment” (Matt. 22:37-38). Love is also the new commandment of Jesus Christ: “A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another” (John 13:34). 1 Corinthians 13 gives us five very compelling reasons why we should love:

(1) Without love, all that I say is ineffective (13:1). Words without love are just noise. Love opens up our hearts to each other. It is not enough just to talk a lot without having love. We only listen and respond to loving words.

(2) Without love, all that I know is incomplete (13:2). Knowledge puffs up, but love builds up (8:1). It is better to have a right heart than just to have a head start. People really don’t care how much you know until they know how much you care.

(3) Without love, all that I believe is insufficient (13:2). There is a misconception that being a Christian is just simply believing in certain doctrines. Guess what? Demons themselves believe that Jesus is the Son of God! But that doesn’t regenerate them.

(4) Without love, all that I give is insignificant (13:3). People often give for the wrong motives of prestige, power and obligation. Unless you mix your giving with genuine love, your giving really means nothing to the recipient.

(5) Without love, all I accomplish is inadequate (13:3). Relationships are more important than accomplishments in life. Success without love is empty. One day, God is going to do an audit on your life. He will not focus on your accomplishments or the size of your bank account. Instead, He will look at your relationships to see how you have lived. The apostle Paul says this over and over again: life minus love equals to zero.

There are three other powerful truths about love. Firstly, love is a choice. You can choose to love whether you feel like it or not. Secondly, love is a sacrifice. The first time in literary history when the word “love” was mentioned had to do with Abraham sacrificing his son, Isaac (Gen. 22:2). Thirdly, love is serving people. Whose needs are you meeting today? Whose hurts are you healing today? Whom are you serving and helping right now?

4:54 PM | Add a comment | Permalink | Blog it

May 20

开心的星期

我很高兴爸爸妈妈都去旅行了。

上个星期六开始，父母亲会去旅行九天。他们会去河内2天，在中国桂林7天。

你们或许不知道为什么我这么开心吧？去旅行的人又不是我，为什么我会比去的人更开心呢？更何况，我现在因为他们去旅行了，还需要在家里扫地抹地，还要兼顾自己的饮食起居，不能像平常依赖父母了。

我很开心，因为这个图片：

看我爸爸那开心的笑容就知道他有多乐呀！他们很久没去旅行了，一直以来都很辛苦。爸爸是一位巴士车长，每天工作都很辛苦，妈妈每天都做家务，让我们有热饭吃，清洁干净的家住，还有时时刻刻都不愁没衣服穿。小时候的我们，也是辛苦地成长过来的。看见父母们为金钱争吵，看见妈妈为了赚一些零用钱给我们上补习课而操劳过度而病倒都是一些成长的记忆。

终于，他们的儿女长大了，虽然不算是大富大贵，也算是有责任，会照顾自己，能养活自己的人了。

我从爸爸的笑容中看到了“轻松”，卸下了重担后果然很开心。旅行前的两个星期，他便开始伸长脖子憧憬着旅行之日的来临，天天都乐滋滋地和妈妈说：“明年我们去韩国。”

老爸也够浪漫甜蜜的。妈妈整天担心这个担心内个的，说什么不要去旅行，又麻烦又讨厌，口是心非。不一会儿又坦白地说：“我确实老了，再不出发脚就走不动了。”被埋怨的爸爸当然已经习惯了妈妈这种脾气，都让着她，常常对妈妈说：“我要和我的老婆去，不要和朋友去旅行。”爸爸还真可爱，粘老婆这种个性排全新加坡第一名。

我只能用“苦尽甘来”来形容爸爸的微笑。说实话，从小到大，因为爸爸不擅长在家中解决问题，偶尔也会觉得很辛苦，爸爸有些无能。“马”家的问题几乎都是女人扛下来的。不过仔细想起来，爸爸在我的成长中扮演着重要的角色。他虽然不算狡猾机灵，但是却是个老实，有老人家智慧的老人家。说实在，越老越可爱。说话有些无厘头。他常常教导我们不要负债，要有责任感。他很会管钱，但是管得太紧时，我们会埋怨他太吝啬。不过，仔细想想，老爸驾辆巴士能挣多少钱？家里有三个娃娃等着喝奶吃饭，生活不简单啊。

他们能开始放轻松了，我真的真的真的很开心。（这趟旅行可是我替他们准备的喔！）

这个星期天他们就要回来了，希望他们30年结婚纪念日“小蜜月”愉快！看见他们幸福，我也很幸福！希望他们接下来一直健康，一直恩爱，这样才能一起度过更美好的日子。=)

***感谢老爸老妈把我们生得这么‘美’！！！！~

11:39 PM | Add a comment | Permalink | Blog it

April 25

我又回来了！

亲爱的朋友们，

或许你认为我无辜消失了很久，其实事实是我的近来状况，都略写在facebook account里。通常我是希望尽可能利用华文书写，这样有助于我在这种英语强势、华语不同用的语言环境练习华文

Dear friends,

recently I personally planned a tour trip for my parents to go to China, Guilin for guided tour holiday of 9 days. I feel very joyful and happy that I was able to do something like this for them as a daughter. Somehow, as years go by and as I mature as an adult, I realized that I want to do more things for my parents.

even when I was in my late teens as I was progressing to the next level of my life, young adulthood and now adulthood, I have noticed how my parents have changed in my eyes. when I was young, their hair are always black and they look alright. the image of them in their late 30s to 40s seem quite the same and that was the impression etched in my mind for a very long time, even until I was just entering university at the age of nineteen.

admitably , perhaps I was really one of the those early maturing people all the time. I start to see deeper into those hair that is turning whiter yearly, and begin to understand the struggle faced when we are younger with the finances. when I was teenage, I always cannot understand why my dad was so careful with money and why both my parents were always so quarrelsome over finance matters. (Thankfully, none of these quibbles erupted into any divorces, they still remained sweetly and lovingly married for 30+ years. ) Seeing the obvious aging of my parents, I always thought I want to do more for them.

therefore I become quite independent, though financially still not that independent yet. I try to settle many matters on my own and that wears me down. at the same time, i do duo-role play as daughter cum decision maker for certain matters of the family. i also hear offloading messages from my mum from time to time.

recently they quarrel quite a bit. my mum quietly tell me that maybe my dad was undergoing menopause (hers ended, she claimed) and thus was a little more temperamental. To be honest, as a daughter, my mum has realy a big issue with her temper. she sounded very unreasonable at times, which we all nicely feedback to her when she is in a good mood. she knows that she has a problem like this, and si trying to control and not behave like this most of the time. but of course, couples should avoid at all times to dig out historical files of misendeavours by each other, those are the triggers that can erupt into serious damages to relations.

as you have seen, it was quite a lofty baggage for me to multipl-role play as marriage counseller, problem solver, young parent , student

anyway I initiated a family tour to go to Guilin because I saw a promotion on ASA. initially I planned to sponsor them to go to malaysia, because it is cheaper but my parents felt that it was too dangerous to move on the steep slopes.

My dad was very excited about the trip! he havent gone for a trip for 10 years.! I cannot join them coz i will be stucked in singapore for training and work matters in school. hence they are flying together from 16 june-24june (9 day trip). my dad took a 12 day holiday....

yoowoo!! he is still so excited until now.....

I am really thankful that I went for the romance and relationship conference and the service sessions Pastor Kong prepared for us as CHC members at Expo. I gained a lot of insight into how relationship works and actually able to do my part as a daughter to bring back some sparks into my parents' relationship! as mentioned to my cg members, it was a second honeymoon for them!! (in fact I was more excited over this than them!)

i have told them how thankful I was that they are around and healthy (when they are watching TV). Dun know how much went into their ears. when I was sick, yesterday I realy appreciated that my mum accompanied me to the polyclinic for 3 times. I fell sick quite frequently in the last 3 months. its very nice to have homecooked food on the table and mummy's reminders to take medicine and have dinner.

In my heart, I just thought: I am really glad that they are alive and healthy. I want to bless them more in the years to come, so I hope they will live a long life, be happily married and be merry.

my cGl's dad, died for quite some years already, she does not even have the opportunity to have dinner or spend time with her decreased dad. another coousin of mine, her mother died of cancer 5years ago and another cousin too, mum died of cousin 10years ago, dun have the chance to fellowship or spend time with their parents anymore.

I am really really thankful for the fact that my parents are still around. I may be very busy, but I can still see them everyday, healthy and contented with life. My prayer at the end of the day is for them to know God and to be blessed in old age. God have placed good parents in my life to groom me, raise me so that I am moulded to be the person I am today. Let the labourers have their share of the earnings they are due for, my parents have sacrifaced a lot to raise me and my siblings up.

Friends, hope that this part of my sharing touches a part of your heart. May we all remember the kindness and love showered on us by our parents, and remain thankful to them always!

6:44 AM | Add a comment | Read comments (2) | Permalink | Blog it

View more entries